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My Wife’s Cesarean August 8, 2011

Posted by xk0der in : Random Musings , 3comments

Considering I’m an Indian citizen, this might be the first of it’s kind in our country. Yes! I was allowed to see my wife’s cesarean operation.

Two day before we had planned for the delivery of our Baby, we visited our Doctor to let her know of our intentions to go for a C-Section. It was then when I asked her to let me in the Operation Theater (OT).

Me: “Doctor I would like to be there in the OT when the operation ….”

Doctor: “Hmmm … That will be a problem, I’m afraid …”

Me: “But in foreign countries they allow the husbands in!”

Doctor: “This is India … ” (Smiles)

Me: “But I really really want to … please”

Doctor: “Would you be able to see you wife being cut and slit?”

Me: “Yes, I’m strong and I know it will be in a controlled environment”

Doctor: “You may be thinking you can do it …  on actually seeing blood … many people chicken out”

Me: “But doc …”

Doctor: “Okay, I’ll let you in when I’m about to take the baby out …. ”

Me: “Thank you doctor … thank you very much”

Doctor: “In India this does not happen … I’ll need to take permission from a lot of people … but I’ll manage” (Smiles)

Me: (I smile back) “Thank you so much doc”

Fast forward to the Delivery Date … 8:30 am in the morning. I arrive with my wife and my Mother-in-law at the Nursing Home. My Dad was already waiting there. I’m starting to get a little nervous by this time. My Dad leaves back home to get my Mom and Brother to the Hospital. We move into our private ward and chit-chat. Soon a couple of nurses enter the room and ask us to leave the room. Things just start to accelerate from this moment onward. When I was let in, I see my wife had been put on drip and few injections had been administered to her. Apart from few more tube coming out of her body.

In no time it is 10:30, the time fixed for the operation to start. My family had arrived by this time. We are asked by the Hospital staff to move to the first floor and wait at the Operation Theater(OT) waiting room. I could feel my hands and feet going cold now, I could only wonder what what was going through my wife’s mind. I caress her forehead and smile to her and tell her we’ll all be very close, before we all moved out to the first floor towards the waiting room.

Now, the time seemed to have slowed down. The seconds seemed like minutes. I told my Mother-in-law, I feel like I’m here to give my term examinations, and it’s Maths paper! Everybody laughed on this. Chat amongst the family is swinging between weather forecast to what would be going inside the OT to how good the hospital is.

To kill time I pick up the camera and started shooting. Clicking snaps and recording videos. Meanwhile I’m thinking if the doctor still remembers about calling me inside the Operation theater. I’m getting anxious now. At around 10:58 a guy came out of the OT, dressed in white and green. With his head and mouth covered, asking for me. I stood up and acknowledged him. He then asked me to follow him inside after removing my shoes, “The doctor has called you in”.

I had already loosened my shoes, immediately I came off them and moved in behind him. On the way inside, he covered my head and mouth with the typical surgeon mask. As I neared the Operation Theater’s door, I could hear “our” baby cry. “The baby’s here”, I said to myself in my head. I was excited and nervous as I entered the room filled with doctors surrounding my wife. On my left was my wife, I could see her tummy all open as the doctor cleared some blood, while my sweetheart smiled backed at me(Which kind of amazed me, considering she was midway a surgery and her tummy was all open, cut apart). Towards my left was our baby, our very own baby. Our princess was here.

It may have been by accident, but it felt as if my daughter looked at me, as if asking, “Why aren’t you coming and taking me in your arms”; The nurse turned her to the other side as she bathed and dressed her. I walked to my wife, beside her head, on the left, as she looked at me with a constant smile on her face. It was a amazing thing to see and experience. My wife was talking to me while the docs were still operating on her. The nurse brought our daughter in-front of us once more before she took her out. My wife held my hands tightly as she adored our princess, I squeezed her hands and rubbed it for a while, as I looked at them both. Still struck with awe, the wonder of life that we created.

I was then asked to wait out as they complete the surgery. I said bye to my wife and thanked the doctor as I headed out. The doctor on my way out said to me “Write a journal – My Wife’s Cesarean” – I didn’t really figured out what she said, but I nodded and said yes. The doctor waved a little bye as I walked out. I had just seen My Wife’s Cesarean.

It’s been about a year since I’ve been writing this post in bits and pieces; My daughter is almost a year and a half old now. And yeah, it was my wife who told me what the doc had said at the end.

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Cyber Wars : Revision3 vs MediaDefender May 30, 2008

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A popular Internet Television network named Revision3 was brought to knees by a cyber attack from a company named MediaDefender, offering services to prevent copyright infringement using P2P distribution method. You can read the complete story here: Revision3 CEO: Blackout caused by MediaDefender attack.

The story seems to be straight out from a Scifi movie. An interesting read, but what’s more interesting are the tactics used by MediaDefender to achieve their goal. The tactics used could well be described as Guerrilla Warfare.

One of their primary tactics is to contaminate the P2P networks with fake and broken files. They create multiple sources for these decoy files and rate them high, so that they show up at the top of a search result, in a P2P client. Other commonly used method is Denial Of Service (DoS) attack.

Apart from this, MediaDefender has been accused of creating multimedia sharing websites to lure people into uploading copyrighted content. MiiVi is(was?) one such website. MiiVi was advertised as a place where you could get full length movies for downloads. MediaDefender, initially denied its involvement with MiiVi, but a major E-Mail leak found MediaDefender guilty. Wikipedia entry for MediaDefender provides more evidence (facts/stories), linking MiiVi to the MediaDefender company.

As the ars technica news entry points out, P2P is also being heavily used for legitimate file sharing. To give an example many of the Linux Distros are available for download over bit-torrent. I once used P2P to transfer (to my project mate) big documents and source-code and related-files of my college project, when you could only send like 1~2 MB of files as e-mail attachment.

Apart from this, what happened to Revision3 could happened to any other business. So where are we heading towards? A supposedly legitimate business is attacking other legitimate business. Crackers/Terror outfits are already using MediaDefender like tactics to attack governments/organisations across the globe. Virtual warfare is gaining momentum. Interesting!

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Dying Democracy? April 10, 2008

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I do not know what to make out of the ruling by Supreme Court (SC) of India with respect to the quota for Other Backward Classes (OBCs) in “IITs, IIMs and other Central educational institutions” the ruling adds that the SC “excluded the creamy layer from the benefit”. Here is the full coverage of the verdict at rediff.com:


Who decides who belongs to the creamy layer of OBCs? How do they decide who belongs to the creamy layer? and why the hell do we need reservations based on castes/creed/religion/sects and the like?

Quoting from the article: “All judges favoured periodic revision on the implementation of the 27 percent quota.”, remember when the original constitution was drafted and the reservations were to last just for 10 years? What year is it now? 2008!

It is but clear, why after every five years the reservations policy is extended to yet another five year term. And every now and then new categories are added to the beneficiary list.

When will this vote politics end? Never!

What to do about it? Think beyond caste, think beyond they-me, think beyond their state-my region, Think beyond India, think Global, think Humanity!

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Good Design or Smart Engineering? May 30, 2007

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This is one question that haunts (new) software engineers day after day.

We learned from the days of BASIC to Java and .NET that goto is an incarnation of devil itself, but we find goto in code written by the so called ‘elite’ programmers. What does this mean? Was all that computer science we learned a crap, of no use?

Well the answer is a surprising “yes”! Well a complete yes will be a bit too overboard ;) , but nevertheless, it is true to a large extent. From the little experience I’ve had as an software engineer and from what I’ve learned from the experience of the so called ‘elite’ programmers, Good design may not always be smart engineering.

What does this mean? Simply put, when writing code that will be used outside of the lab, in the real world, you should use the best possible solution. The best possible here refers to the solution which is faster, uses least number of resources and possibly adheres to other criteria that make your final code perform slick and cool stuff efficiently.

The above does not imply that you start writing obfuscated code! No, not at all. Read the above para again, the essence of engineering is producing efficient solutions not which are hard for other to understand, though this may result due to the efficient solution derived, but that is not the goal here. Science, or more specifically (in our case) computer science proposes ideal designs and assumes ideal conditions for those designs. In reality there is no ideal computer, no ideal processor and no ideal language and rarely do you get ideal conditions :)

So for the real world, when designing a solution, we need to take many factors into consideration. So a smart engineer will not be swayed away into the idealistic world trying to deliver an ideal solution. In the real world there are no thumb rules that one should (or would) follow blindly! These so called “thumb rules” are suggestion which may or may not apply to your solution.

Time is one of the major factors affecting the design of a solution. For companies to succeeded in todays cut-throat competition, it is not just the delivery of product that is important but it is the timely delivery that takes precedence. You would not like to fall behind your competitors, would you? So a solution that can be implemented in least possible time is at times the best, no matter how many rules of good programming design it may be breaking.

Engineers are not there to prove any scientific law or theorem, they are there to get things done, the most effective way!

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C# and .NET will die! June 8, 2006

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Not yet, but slowly!

They may rise to a certain level before they die, but they will!

Before I continue let me clarify that this post is not about whether C# or .NET is a good technology or not; .NET might be very good concept coming out of Microsoft’s closet, but again popularity and sustainability of a language is not governed by a language being the best in terms of syntax or it’s robust compiler or the object code it generates and the like.

For the desktop we already have a plethora of languages available, so C# might eat into that share but wouldn’t be able to dominate that domain. VB6 is far better in terms of development time and ease of code writing that the new VB.NET and C# for creation of desktop applications. And now that Microsoft has announced that their new OS, Vista, will have support for legacy VB6 and COM objects, there is no point for these developers to switch to something entirely different from what they are used to.

Let’s face it, still the majority of desktop apps written in .NET use the interop mechanism to interface with COM objects. And that’s not going to change any soon. This means extra burden for the programmer, interop is more of a workaround than a feature. Most of my peers have this to say about interop wrappers “When I can write do_this( ); to do a thing, why write do_this( ); do_that( ); do_this_too( ); do_that_too( ); now_using_something_else_do_what_I_want( );” Not a pretty thing to look at too!

After the prospects of desktop apps being bleak for C# and .NET, the other arena where C# might try to fight a losing battle is the web! The reason it will be a losing battle is that there are already many scripting languages available for server side scripting and development. The other fact that Unixes and Linux Boxes are now becoming the first choice for web servers makes it even more difficult for .NET to survive. At least I don’t see, that, in foreseeable future windows will release a .NET framework for *nix boxes. There have been some attempts by some people and groups to create a .NET framework for Linux, but they have all not been a hit to the extent required.

PHP, Python and even Perl are the choice of programmers for server-side development. C# does not provide any uniqueness that the programmers will love to adopt, at least not on the surface level.

The final words
All said, programmers do not want to learn a new language just for the sake of the language being new. The new language needs to have that something “special” in to attract the masses. C# and .NET family of languages lack this very basic essence. They are essentially camouflaged Java!

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Ruby – *The* programming language June 4, 2006

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I Happen to stumble upon Ruby lately, and this is one heck of a cool language!

You may say! Oh! no… I don’t need another language now! Probably most of us(the coder specie) have spent years on our favourite language(or not so favourite language?). And would certainly not like to plunge into yet another language. We’ve already got a bunch of them in our heads already!

But take my word! I too had the same apprehension, but after just spending ten minutes futzing with the Ruby interpreter … I had the same fun when I started learning QBasic during early 1990s. (Yeah!, you may try and guess my age from this fact!)

This language is simple, yet powerful. And as the creator intended it to be the language with “least-surprise”, it really has features that come intuitively to the programmer specie. I would surely recommend to all my programmer friends to give this cool new toy(or weapon!) a try!

Here are some links to get you started

Ruby Tutorial

Download Ruby (Homepage)
http://www.ruby-lang.org/en/ (English version)

Ruby on rails
http://www.rubyonrails.org/ (a web development framework for ruby!)

Interview with the creator of Ruby (Yukihiro Matsumoto ~aka~ Matz)

Ruby on wikipedia

I Hope these links will get you started and most importantly interested in this serious yet fun (to code) language.

Obviously, I’m not getting converted (from *my* language to this new one) but I’m surely enjoying every bit of code I write in Ruby!

– xk0der

PS: I would love to receive comments about new members who join the force!

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